Wow, it’s been SO long. How have y’all been?! It’s been exactly one year since I released my first blog post. I remember starting this and being scared of not being supported. When I tell you, God turned that fear into everlasting joy because the support has been SO real😭
I know I’ve been gone for a while & I do apologize. I can’t pour out into people if I’m running empty. I also can’t pour into people if I’m not following & living God’s word accordingly. Now, don’t get me wrong, I was still writing things & maybe one day I’ll release them, but I just refused to lead someone to Christ & I, myself, was drifting away from Him.
If I could sum up my 2018 in just ONE song lyric, I would choose “I can finally breathe, because I can finally see, You’re not disappointed in me.” When I tell you there were SO many times where I just kept slipping up & the enemy would just feed lies to me. “Oh you broke your celibacy AGAIN? You can’t go back to Him.” “Oh you had a disagreement with someone from church? Haha, they never even cared about you anyway. What makes you think God cares?” It got so bad to the point where I did take a break from going to church & even at one time, from going to work. I was so miserable and depressed. I tried to pour out to people & vent, but it just wasn’t enough. And I would HATEEEEEE when I would vent to someone and they would say “Did you talk to God yet?” like OOOOP, now I have to block you too! (lol)
There was this time I went to church & brought a friend along. She didn’t know much of what was happening but at that time, I wasn’t too fond of God & I was only attending church so no one would question me on my whereabouts. She leaned over to me and said, “God said stop being stubborn.” I was like what?! But she was so right. I KEPT placing a “no” on God’s “wait” and His “not yet” which caused me to become stubborn and less in love with Him. I didn’t want to do anything involving Him. But what was so crazy, He KEPT sending people my way. People would send me messages… “I know we don’t talk often but I just feel like I’m supposed to talk to you…” or people coming to me asking “Are you Christian? You’re giving me that vibe.” Like what vibe? Lol.
Through it all, God remain faithful even when I wasn’t faithful. He still kept His promises even when I didn’t keep mine. And when I finally realized who I was & Whose I was… yes that’s very cliche, but look, when you come to that realization, BABY, the devil can’t tell you a THING!!
I’m so glad that God revealed me to myself & things I had going on before He lifted His “not yet” off of me getting back to writing. He had to do that, the good bad & the ugly, so I could become more relatable & reach more people. Even if I didn’t like the process, it had to be done! It’s time to get back to saving lives & being Young, Lit & Saved🤪
“When I thought I lost me, You knew where I left me. You reintroduced me to Your love. You picked up all of my pieces, put me back together. You are the Defender of my heart.”
-Defender by Rita Springer
Young Lit & Saved. 